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I still want Phish to get back together and play inside the limelight. im going to do the place up. what is the deal with skittles? they're going to open that when? anyhow i think phish should get back together and play inside limelight b/c i'm making it my particular club and deal for the rest of my life although imagining phish inside the club idea of skittles is insane. no. limelight. play limelight. either way i promise every fairfield kid who wants to be down on it that it's all good and that now that i think about it phish is probably getting back together to open skittles and i just forgot about it and now i remember it b/c im seperate from williamsburg but paris and i and all my people will come down from the show and im the founder so its all good and it sounds more like the strokes/white stripes/matt and kim will be opening limelight. this makes alot more sense considering the concept and venue size of the places. im happy that i contributed to the entirety scene of nyc music creating these two clubs. and now i understand the difference between my/paris hiltons club @ the limelight and what Skittles is. My heart is in the limelight though. But I'm happy that Skittles exists, without me and probably w/the silvertiles kids. an entirely different group of people. 

So I'm getting it now. OK now I get it. And this would be the last entry for this blog. 

Join us again for the next fun fuckfest. 

Come to the Limelight. I'm going now to the 5th ave apple store. 

Love, 

Little Nemo 

icky thump

so i'm throwing 32 numbers on Sam-e bottles and i'm really running with this as I go

I'm making up punk art as I go 

it's all in the spirit of the ramones especially these moments 

and we're building something thats based on a spiritual philosophy 

so this really is the level that little nemo should be on 

thats really key and its really cool and its really like damn.... 

this shit is not easy. 

icky thump is a new fucking thing for me and is till wanna fuck meg white trying to look at all of this from the outside which isnt always happening and more or less im thinking well i could run it with how i used to write way back in the day and kinda run with whatever stream of thoughts ihave going on in my head but all things considered if i do that we're also facing a particular thought processe of not having pot when that was the whole spark that made tasty moursels and the spark that made the republican family and the hartford series with zany adam and passerelli as mitch reynolds and the whole thing. 

so it'd be pretty key to get high but it seems everytime i do that on this show they go after me in an awkward way. do u have any idea what its like to get stoned and have people broadcasting through you're head trying to bug you out? its fun when they're like, hi im lorenna gomez sanchez in you're head but the rest of the time it's really really not a fun deal. they mention it like they turn me into a child and go after me in that way. what an awful fucking thing. 

7 nation army

somewhere in the back of my mind i'm more or less designing a crew symbol system. 

i think it's all a little bit complex outside my head and it's really like oh 

i used to think before people transmitted through me

but i'd be lost without them 

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 

well i can bitch about it or catch on that it's like a team effort

this is all very fraternal but one has to admit totally freaky 

okay. i'm hungry and it's allllllmost next apple store time. 

love, 

little nemo 

fell in love with a girl

so I sort of flash through the years of when i realized i needed to get off my ass 

and i needed to get to fucking school

and i needed to be recording our adventures in the mustang 

because if i wasnt hitting on lauren arnoff that night @ jennys birthday party for josh i'd be dead

and if I wasn't hitting on her for being a bitch (an art school cunt) a little preppy bitch i'd be dead and the part that stuck out of it all in my head is that when pascal called and he was like i almost died in the a car crash and i told her she laughed. like laughed out loud. 

and then was like oh im sorry. 

and was real giddy and i loved her for this. 

lauren arnoff is on the pants of isis.

and thats so fucking key.

b/c i almost fucked her sister for voting for guliani and being a republican chick outside radio city music hall after bjork. 

hi arnoff sisters. you're both welcome in whichever district u wanna go in. 

love, 

little nemo

girl anachronism

i'm flashing back on all the people i want to be involved with the limelight 

and i'm flashing back to the fact that if i stood in hartford i would have been apart of phi delta chi when slick matt was formulating the hartford chapter so i definitely want uha kids from pdt especially slick/benson to come along to limelight and run the club w/me. 

and to let the phi delta chi kids know they have an opening with me. i consider myself still a beecher kid and one of slick matt's bros so you can come to me when u want a job. slick will refer you and it'll probably be like the paper writing thing backwards.

you'll end up going through me to slick and now i give u money 

and u get a job doing whatever. im a good boss i overpay and im rich for writing down getting high times with passerelli and slick in hartford. 

bomb ass shit. seriously. 

love, 

little nemo

what it takes

okay so the question is: 

can a man come up with the knowledge he has over a decade 

some form of an esoteric creation 

and run through it in the course of 12 hours 

can i back up the idea of fairfield kids being the shit

and rich kids running through the dreamscape concept 

can we beat the idea of silver tiles in 12 hours what probably took a month

can we proove that paris hilton beats cailtin in the world of inspiration and muse

and the entire thing is that these girls are actually on the line. 

hmmmm. 

yes. yes we can.

thats the whole idea. 

so this is working for little nemo eats forecastmazy. 

but maybe i should be working on the next level. 

im sure we'll figure this out. 

okay we have no fucking choice obviously we're going to im halfway babbling in this moment and also just wanting to stay on track. 

considering how i was never shy and i was one inch away from fulfilling my actual personality and having sex with biatta girls before we went on pause (preppy uptown/jewish although jew not a battery requirement) i'll find some bitter place and go. 

pause point. that fucking pause point. 

yo, does jessica host want a symbol too. hey host, actually, do you wanna move here? you're on the in (obviously). the show is semi premised around you're visit its only right. 

love, 

little nemo 

living on the edge

the entire mental sales point of aerosmith becomes this being my first concert 

and this being a band i was and am deeply into 

but we never talked about this on this show 

why? how did we skip over this. 

this was my first concert. 

so how did i skip over aerosmith on this t.v. show? 

we covered led zeppelin right? how did we skip over aerosmith. 

oh yeah, joe perry kid @ sva all good. 

ahh they're fucking with my head when i start to get into actually really genuine and important moments. mad lame. you know these aerosmith videos from the 90s are so fucking key too. 

im so psyched to make music videos in the limelight 

but what will we call my tony wilson show?

i need paris hilton to give me the ups on this. 

okay so we've almost finished the first pillar in the formula and thats decently key. 

then we're going to the 5th ave apple store. 

3 apple stores in one day. 

a trine. 

how fucking esoteric in an exoteric way. 

love, 

little nemo

love in an elevator

im a fucking whore from the 1980s 

and i fucking love the sluttiness that aerosmith grants me 

and i hate the kids who talked shit about fairfield to begin with

no you do not get to separate my reality one from the other

no when the fuck was fairfield separate in my mind from manhattan

i was thinking of the nyc metropolitan area 

i was thinking fairfield was training ground

i was thinking brett easton ellis

i was thinking of the people who wanted to embarrass me in my hometown eating shit. 

Love, 

Little Nemo

crying

i wanted to be some male version of alicia silverstone

now in the mass run of things i really wonder what the fuck i actually am

like in the cult of personality 

what does the slut personality that i hold really represent

yes theres more than a one key situation in what i am 

but i still really wonder that 

imagine the boy version of 1993 alicia silverstone 

what the fuck would that be? 

I suppose in all essence some version of me on a good day when it sounds a little taste moreso of the no gay. 

love, 

little nemo

where is my mind

okay. somebody definitely made this where is my mind music video from my hometown. 

i know im supposed to pretend im not from fairfield in my mind but that makes no sense. 

it defeats the whole purpose of how i fucking bitch on john mayer. 

so i appreciate the prop ups to get off this show. and i think maybe its a tribute to me? 

like i have fans and shit. thats pretty fucking awesome. 

so thank you for being my fan even when im out of my mind. 

and thanks the strokes for keeping a webiste that i emulated my blog and early photography in the east village off of. 

kissing ass? no not so much. just a little overly sincere in a moment when im supposed to be a little more of a dick. 

love, 

little nemo

When It Started

So I'm researching all the facts on Little Nemo down to dream one and figuring out a way to mix this into the next round of the show. Still figuring out what we're going to name that. And I think it's really key that in dream one (1984) wikipedia describes it as a kid who wears pajamas and wanders around this psychotic dream world, I describe the movie as reflecting the psychosis of esoteric dream philosophy in a way that you can create an amazing short film. I remember watching this movie @ 725 9th avenue apt 3D NY, NY 10019 and I was so incredibly happy @ the end of it that I was creating Little Nemo as my thesis. I should have never given up on creating Little Nemo. That was the route to Manhattan, to keeping my apartment in Hell's Kitchen and having the future that I originally wanted. I need to get off this show. This feels alot like a moment I've had before where I bitched alot about that @ Marilyn's apratment or I guess it's when they throw that into my head. I'm not really into having these thoughts put into my head. Let me so deeply assure you, I do not enjoy having thoughts put into my head or the transmissions of mental projections in and outward. This is a semi, well more than semi fucking suck situation. 

Love, 

Little Nemo

Is This It

This was my graduation from high school present. this was really the cum @ the end of high school sucking. going to see the strokes.

this was the first time i was inside radio city music hall. 

yo, the strokes, seriously, open the limelight, it's the only thing that's right. 

@ the huge concert when this show ends. 

I really need to get off this show. 

Love, 

Little Nemo

someday

somewhere around the time i was a kid in my youth crying in my bedroom alone needing to escape to nyc i was listening to the strokes someday and somewhere in the back of mind i got really luck that all of this shit happened so now i can do blow with the strokes and have them open up the limelight. open up the limelight. oh shit. this is the video where i learned about guided by voices. what a flashback to a moment in time when everything sucked on mtv but this band. jesus christ why did they ever play nickelback in the same block as the strokes. 

this was the band that 'saved rock' but really it was all i listened to in 2001 aside the pixies. 

love, 

little nemo 

12:51

ohhhhhhh. they're having my favorite bands make the soundtrack of this show. 

and they make new songs. 

all n.y.c. bands. 

and then when weinstein/bloomberg productions release this show through hbo dvd you see this show w/the new songs and it creates another future economy and royalties and something cool to watch. 

holy shit. i think about this and im so glad to be little nemo. 

its so cool. when im not crazy. 

love, 

little nemo

what ever happened?

I just realized that this is working out really well 

as Little Nemo the whole thing of being Sebastion Valmont and making my way to Paris Hilton works out in the world of the metaphors; paris being the princess (heiress; which for me is Isis; translates to ultimate female which for me translates to ultimate rich girl) and kid Morpheus ends up being Mayor Bloomberg whom comissions me to find my way to the princess going through a series of dangerous obstacles including N.Y.C. politics to find my way as young N.Y.C. republican ollie slocum to my sukki sapperstein without the marriage (a side of 'steff' from pretty in pink). 

It's all really cool. I'm damn fucking proud to be Little Nemo and represent N.Y.C. in this way. 

Love, 

Little Nemo 

under control

I need to escape this T.V. show. 

Which is something I say everyday. 

W.T.F. does escape mean. 

I'm just throwing another entry into this moment. 

They get to the point of distracting me. 

And that's something. Not so much a good thing. 

I'm decently close to finding my way off this show. 

This is something alot like the prior model of things. When I started this diary like when I started the other one it was alot of the confusion of being in this moment and being fucked with. it started out like a way of dealing with what become silver tiles. really it all comes into figuring out a way to deal with this show on a constant basis. hey, it's saturday. that's only important b/c i'm going to finish this by sunday morning. 

I used to rant about Guliani alot. 

And that's a damn good thing for me. 

Love, 

Little Nemo 

last night

how did jerking off to laura flynn boyle in twin peaks turn into the esoteric spiritual thing that i'm trapped in. 

the whole thing is this is the other kids plot line. i cant really find my way out well

actually apparently i did complete his plotline with paris hilton

and now i have to complete my plotline 

which is a very interesting idea 

since im doing it right now 

but like, how long does that take? 

fuck. when do i get laid. 

love, 

little nemo

fucking exoteric

everything is fucking exoteric about this religious shit now. 

I'm not into it but i always get forced back into it somehow 

when i really dont give a shit 

anyhow, the entire thing in the show is it makes me money which is the entire thing 

wow religion and god and the mental astral thats so exciting 

but i use it to my advantage 

love, 

little nemo

take it or leave it

wow. 

I'm having this total pet shop flashback to the 18 million times I made people listen to Is This It as my demand in the petshop and talked about hating tim willis 

the strokes. definitely the band i would have planned my movie of escape to in my childhood mind. 

the shitting on tim making our way to new york city band. 

escape from fairfield 

the deconstructions of our identity to avoid the implosion of the lower class child 

an essay in diaries you'll easily found via the gupta household 

where i stored one of my other selves 

love, 

little nemo

The Modern Age

So I go through this like a form of psychology 

and do you realize that through all of this I'm finding out fantastic things about myself 

like the reasons I hate Tim Willis' daughter is she represents something I created 

in failing to stop Tim from having any influence in Fairfield. 

In the fact that I should have kicked him out and sent the fucking kid into the streets. 

That was the entire idea. 

The Strokes are out representational band. 

We are the New York City Metropolitan area. 

I wish death on the worthless creatures of green/blue/red 

Please Ryan Willis and all of Tim Willis' family. 

Die. Today. 

Love, 

Little Nemo